So, Here I Am

Today, I have just finished shopping for Jeff's Christmas presents. Actually, I started it and I finished it...internet shopping is the best! However, I still have to find and purchase gifts for all of my family, and that is always the hardest part...only Jeff makes me a list of his 'top picks'!

I am sitting here staring at my Christmas tree, and I am thinking, 'they are always so much prettier at night'. Hmmmm...

I am sitting here on this computer, basically doing nothing, when I should be up cleaning my house, doing laundry, washing dishes, any and all of these things. I am just so unmotivated today. I guess what is different than from any other day? What I really want to do is paint my bathroom. It is this hideous dark green and cream color, and I hate it, have hated it since moving into this house. I have all of the colors that I need to paint it, I just know it is going to take more than one day, and I have to go to work tomorrow night, and I don't think I can get it done in time. Bathrooms and kitchens suck to paint. All of the little corners and nooks and crannies. I remove all of the doors on the cabinets, so that I don't get paint on the hangers, so that is additional time...ugh, it makes me tired thinking of all of it.

I really should be calling the doctor also. I have had this pain in my lower left quadrant for the past, oh, two months or so, and it is pretty constant, although it waxes and wanes. The longer it goes on, the more concerned I become, but on my days off, I just do not want to leave the house. This is so sad to me; I am a 26-year-old female, recently married, I should be having the time of my life, but I just don't get excited about anything anymore. I don't want to drive the 45 minutes to the cities, I just want to be home. I miss my mom; haven't seen her in almost a month; I miss my friends, haven't seen any of them since the wedding. I really honestly think that if I let myself become one, I could be an agoraphobic. That scares me.

Anyway, I guess I should go and start cleaning the house. Who knows, maybe I can clean the house and paint the bathroom? Ha, not going to happen.